By the look in your eyes, I'd say nothing could tear you down.

DC-tastic Song

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 01:26:13 GMT

All Time Lows - Hellogoodbye
This song makes me think of Bart. A lot.

Whether or not the weather is on my side
We could be together if i stay bright eyed
I can feel the summer sending signs of fall
I see a happy ending if i stand up tall

Whether or not this cold front is moving in
Or its just vacation and well soon be friends
I know i cant avoid her shes in the air
May as well polaroid her with the way i stare

Whether or not our season will soon be done
I think ive got a reason to enjoy the sun
I hear the forecast aint as bad as it seems
It should be clearing up soon if only in dreams

Ooo tonight the stars are oh so bright.
Ive gotta get outdoors while the weathers still here
Ive gotta take in the starlight before it disappears
A chance lasts a finite time in the warm july night time
So take in all you can

Burn This City - Cartel
C'mon. Seriously.

And stay up all night and sleep all day,
We were smart kids with too much to say.
And so, so sure that they were missing out,
They're the ones who were missing out, and
We were elemental, talked down to bear essentials,
Who knew we'd get so far?

Cause our days were numbered by nights on too many rooftops.
They said we'd burn so bright.
We'd burn this city and go.

Play it again,(our Games of Love and Lust)
There's no such thing (no there's never too much).
And we were so, so sure, no we never had a doubt.
Now were counting down days to getting out.

We were elemental, talked down to bear essentials.
Who knew we'd get so far?

Cause our days were numbered by nights on too many rooftops.
They said we're wasting our lives,
Oh at least we know, that if we die - we lived with passion.
They said we'd burn so bright.
We'd burn this city and go.

Pack our bags and lets get away - they're catching on to us. [2x]
Pack our bags and get away- they're catching on to us. [2x]

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh [3x]

Cause our days were numbered by nights on too many rooftops.
They said we're wasting our lives,
Oh at least we know, that if we die - we lived with passion.
They said we'd burn so bright.
We'd burn this city, and go.

(Burn this city and go,
and oh, we'd burn this city and go.
Yeah wed burn this city and go)

[Chanted twice]
Cause our days were numbered by nights on too many rooftops.
They said we're wasting our lives,
Oh at least we know, that if we die - we lived with passion.
They said we'd burn so bright.
Oh-oh-oh!

Cause our days were numbered by nights on too many rooftops.
They said we're wasting our lives,
Well we're not wasting our lives.

Capital H - Motion City Soundtrack
This song reminds me of Kon. <3

I'll be back tomorrow
I'll be back in the ballroom swingin'
I'll be back with my Superman action
And I’m off to save the world
silly me I left a message with no return number
for my boys in blue in case of an emergency
in case the shit goes down yea

I'll be back tomorrow
I'll be back in the ballroom swingin'
I'll be back with my Superman action
And I’m off to save the world

I'll be back tomorrow
I'll be back in the ballroom swingin'
I'll be back with a capital H
It stands for hero, and the hero is me

I'll be back tomorrow
I'll be back at a quarter to 11
I'm half drunk and I can’t see straight
A hero zero with a capital Z (that's me)
Singing songs from the balcony as the city crumbles
Under the powers of an evil doctor rocket science monster
with capabilities to destroy the entire universe, yo

I'll be back tomorrow
I'll be back in the ballroom swingin'
I'll be back with my Superman action
And I’m off to save the world

I'll be back tomorrow
I'll be back in the ballroom swingin'
I'll be back with a capital H
It stands for hero, and the hero is me

Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I'll be back tomorrow
I'll be back in the ballroom swingin'
I'll be back with my Superman action
And I'm off to save the world

I'll be back tomorrow
I'll be back in the ballroom swingin'
I'll be back with a capital H
It stands for hero, and the hero is me

I'll be back tomorrow
I'll be back in the ballroom swingin'
I'll be back with my Superman action
And I'm off to save the world

I'll be back tomorrow
I'll be back in the ballroom swingin'
I'll be back with a capital H
It stands for hero, and the hero is me

Chia-Like, I Shall Grow - Say Anything
I wonder if they're trying to write DC relevant songs. No, really.
This song is -ouch-. Bruce. Jason. Red Hood. Ow.

I've watched you all succeed with the highest marks in greed
From my cave, where you're displayed like photographs that bleed
And my teeth grind names into their ivory membranes.
I am hate everlasting with each sickly spell I'm casting.

I discard all feelings.
The stars scar my ceiling.
Sun, I won't spare you. Moon, I won't spare you.

And my pain is mine. It's become my friend with time.
Chia-like, it grows. Watch it fester for my foes.
One day, I'm gonna get up and get right back into the city with my flamethrower mouth.
You bet your life it won't be pretty.

I discard all my feelings.
As the stars still scar my ceiling (oh)
I won't spare you. (Whoa) I, I won't spare you.

Photograph (bath), photograph (bath), photograph
Why'd you have to go and take a picture of a life like that?
You aren't new enough. I give up, I give up, I give up on you.

Look at you (you), look at you (you), look at you (you).
Pretty boy floating face down in a pond of glue.
You aren't new enough. We give up, we give up, we give up on all those like you.

I discard all feelings.
The stars scar my ceiling.
(Whoa) I won't spare you. (Whoa) I, I won't spare you.

(Won't spare you, won't spare you, won't spare you, I won't spare you)
I shall grow and grow...
I'll grow.

Everything is Alright - Motion City Soundtrack.

First, I thought of this song as very YJ!Bart, but I've had a few different impressions since. Some of them pretty ow.

Tell me that you're alright,
That everything is alright.
Please tell me that you're alright,
That everything is alright.

Give me a reason to end this discussion,
To break with tradition, to fall and divide.
Because I hate the ocean, theme parks and airplanes,
Talking with strangers, waiting in line..
I'm through with these pills that make me sit still.
"Are you feeling fine?"
Yes, I feel just fine.

Tell me that you're alright,
That everything is alright.
Please tell me that you're alright,
That everything is alright.

I'm sick of the things I do when I'm nervous
Like cleaning the oven or checking my tires
Or counting the number of tiles in the ceiling..
Head for the hills, the kitchen's on fire!

I used to rely on self-medication,
I guess I still do that from time to time.
But I'm getting better at fighting the future,
"Someday you'll be fine.."
Yes, I'll be just fine.

Tell me that you're alright,
That everything is alright.
Please tell me that you're alright,
That everything is alright.

Give me a reason to end this discussion
To break with tradition, to fall and divide,
So let's not get carried away
With the process of healing relations
I don't want to waste your time.

Tell me that you're alright,
That everything is alright.
Please tell me that you're alright,
That everything is alright.

Everything's fine.

Wow, I Can Get Sexual Too - Say Anything
This song is, to me, VERY VERY Kon.
Kon/Cassie, in a funny way.

[telephone rings]

If I die and go to hell real soon,
it will appear to me as this room.
And for eternity I lay in bed
in my boxers, half stoned,
with the pillow under my head.

I'd be chatting on the interweb;
maggots pray upon the living dead.
I had no interest in the things she said.
On the phone every day,
I'll permanently hit the hay.

I called her on the phone and she touched herself.
She touched herself. She touched herself.
I called her on the phone and she touched herself.
I laughed myself to sleep.

At this rate,
I'll be heading for electric chairs.
I'm only human with my cross to bear.
When she described her underwear
I forgot all the rules my rabbi taught me in the old schul.

You're too young to be this empty girl
I'll prepare you for a sick dark world
Know that you'll be my downfall.
But I call and I call and I call.

I called her on the phone and she touched herself.
She touched herself. She touched herself.
I called her on the phone and she touched herself.
I laughed myself to sleep.

I don't know what I want.
I don't know what I want.
I don't know what I want.
I don't know what I want.
I don't know what I want. (Met you on the internet)
I don't know what I want. (Met you on the internet)
I don't know what I want. (Met you on the internet)
I don't know what I want. (Met you on the internet)

I called her on the phone and she touched herself.
She touched herself. She touched herself.
I called her on the phone and she touched herself.
I laughed myself to sleep.

(Woah!)

I called her on the phone and she touched herself.
She touched herself. She touched herself.
I called her on the phone and she touched herself.
I laughed myself to sleep.

Young America - Jump Little Children
So much ow. Very Young Justice.

Too young to learn it
Too young to earn it
Too innocent, too pure, too kind

Too fair to show it
Too fair to know it
Too dependent, too close, and too blind

Will she fall out of favor?
Will the stars not save her?
Will she walk on the razor's edge
Or be lost when she burns that bridge?
Will she take what I gave her on her way
To young America

Too bright to be faded
Too light to be weighted
Too effortless, lucid, and fine

Will she fall out of favor?
Will the stars not save her?
Will she walk on the razor's edge
Or be lost when she burns that bridge?
Will she take what I gave her on her way
To young America

Will she cross the line
Looking for the star of ages
Young America's waiting
Young America's waiting
Young America's waiting

Will she fall out of favor?
Will the stars not save her?
Will she walk on the razor's edge
Or be lost when she burns that bridge
Will she take what I gave her on her way

Young America's waiting
Young America's waiting
Young America's waiting
Young America's waiting

Save Us - Cartel
I see this as YJ's reactions to Kon dying. Ouch.

Simple words we never knew,
The power behind what they put us through,
Now it's all begun
What it takes to make it real.
We're standing on the edge of this,
When our soul is gone what will we miss?
We lost what it takes to really really feel.

But the better days behind us now,
We all need someone to tell us how
To save the state of where we are,
It keeps demanding more and more and more.
And who will save us?
This can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you save, and can you save us?
Oh I can't go on out of rhythm with our time.

We hold these truths self evident,
The lies we used to represent
Who we are, because it was never meant to be.
And all the songs we used to sing, they used to tell us everything.
All about how it was never meant to be.

But the better days behind us now.
We all need someone to tell us how
To save the state of where we are,
It keeps demanding more and more and more.
And who will save us?
This can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you save, and can you save us?
Oh I can't go on out of rhythm with our time.

Say the words, give it all the time you need.
Let it out, oh, just say anything.
Say the words and make them count,
Say them loud without a doubt.
Give us truth and nothing more,
Leave us wanting more and more.

Can you save us?
This can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you say, that you'll save us?
Oh I can't go on, out of rhythm with our time.
And can you say, you say, you'll save us?
I can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you say, that you'll save us?
Oh I can't go on, out of rhythm with our time.

We're out of rhythm with our time.

Do you have any? I'd be happy to add them.

Which House, MD Character Are You?

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 00:05:26 GMT

Dr. Lisa Cuddy
50% Eccentricity, 60% Confidence, 50% Kindness

Congratulations, you're Dr. Lisa Cuddy! You've got a healthy balance of confidence, kindness, and general oddity (because asking a person who works for you to stick a needle in your butt is odd, no matter how hot he may be). You're probably an excellent leader with a good sense of humor. You also probably have a vulnerable side that not many people know about.

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on Eccentricity

You scored higher than 99% on Confidence

You scored higher than 99% on Kindness

Link: The House, MD Personality Test written by freedomdegrees on OkCupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Panic! at the disco.

Mon, 08 May 2006 04:31:00 GMT

Ogod, I love this CD. In particular, I'm falling all over myself for these songs:

The Only Difference Between Martyrdom and Suicide Is Press Coverage
Lying Is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off
I Write Sins Not Tragedies
and
There's a Good Reason These Tables Are Numbered Honey, You Just Haven't Thought of It Yet

Hoyesh. Especially, 'Lying'. The first verse of that song is so hot. His voice! I love it.

Anyways, life updates.
I have 2 (almost) one month old nephews.
Sarah, my sister in law, is pregnant. Due in November.
I got a new cellphone. And a palm pilot. And a digital camera.
For christmas I got an electronic keyboard. And an acoustic guitar. <3
My sophomore year is almost over. 0.o...
That's about it...

Let's get these teen hearst beating faster, faster,
ALD

Testing my RS

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 04:04:02 GMT

Letter to Santa XD

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 03:38:44 GMT

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In October I bought porn for nilamarthiel (10 points). Last Wednesday I helped shippo_fox hide a body (-173 points). In June I gave change to a homeless guy (19 points). In January I farted in an elevator (-6 points). Last week I didn't flush (-1 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-151 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking!

Sincerely,
atrum_lupus_dea

Holy Cheeses.

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 02:35:33 GMT

I haven't updated in almost a year. Holy shizzcrackers.

Anyways, I just got From Under The Cork Tree, the Fall Out Boy CD. I absolutely love it. I mean, my iTunes says I've played each song at least 12 times all the way through.

Lalalalalala....

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 22:57:04 GMT

Welcome to the nightmare that began the world I live in, the grand entrance of the fiend who stole everything I could have been.

Dunno where that came from. Oh, well. It was fun.

Anyways, the play's going pretty well. Wheee...

Dunno what to say, nothing's really happening.

Oh, Heather let me read her 'Johnny The Homocidal Maniac' Book. Personally I think he's crazy... and I LOVE IT! Heh heh heh. Well, hopefully my Mom will drop us off at the mall on Friday. I need to get some new clothes and maybe a few new cool necklaces or something.

Bugsy's family on Sims is very... reproductive? There's 6 children (and counting) Well, better go. Bye.

Go Beaver Go,
Me

Wow... a lot's happened...

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 04:55:24 GMT

Ok, so I'll start with recent events.

Tommy and I broke up.Yes, yes I know. We seemed so cuuute! -.-... We decided that since we were on the fence of breaking up and he was annoying the hell out of me for some reason, we should break up.

Anna and Adam broke up too. Anna was happy finally. Adam was sad first, but he seems fine now. Anna and I started the NDA. (Non-Daters Anonymous.) It's a club thing... It'll be really cool once we get started on the fun stuff. It's more of a 'We don't need significant others to have fun' than a 'Oh, I don't have a boyfriend, boohoo.' Kind of group.

Anyways, I thought of this so I could post some quiz results. So here:

http://quizilla.com/users/hoplessromantic/quizzes/Who%20are%20you%20inside%3F%3F%3F%3F%3F%20(LOTS%20OF%20RESULTS)girls%20only

You are a cat woman. You are independant and very self-rigious. You have a mind of your own and are not afraid to show it. You tend to hide your true feelings and get frustrated (easy).

http://quizilla.com/users/Jai16/quizzes/Where%20Does%20Your%20Beauty%20Lie%3F%20..%3A%3AOriginal%20Pictures%20Are%20Back!%20Detailed%20Results%3A%3A..

Your Beauty lies in Individuality. Different, amazing, and all your own. You like be set apart from all others and most love that you do. You are solitary at times, but for the most part, there is no greater compliment to you than someone telling you that you are different. You're most likely a bit of a fighter and you hate it when anyone attempts to change who you are. You wear what you want, look how you want and don't let anyone tell you what do to. You can be a little immature at times and have trouble dealing with authority and asking others for help. You like to do things yourself and are independent almost to a fault. But, people still find your individuality amazing and the fact that no matter what happens or what anyone else anyone thinks about it, you will not change who you are.

Some Things That Represent You:

Element: Dark, Fire Animal: White Tiger Color: Bold Colors, Odd Colors Song: Just They Way I Am by Angel Expression: Smirk

Gemstone: Bloodstone Mythological Creature: Phoenix, Dragon Planet: Pluto Hair Color: Unnatural Colors Eye Color: Amber

Quote: "You laugh because I'm different. I laugh because you're all the same."

http://quizilla.com/users/hoplessromantic/quizzes/What%20part%20of%20life%20do%20you%20represent%3F%20(%20AWESOME%20anime%20pics%20%5E_%5E)

you are the wise part of life. you are mature and very smart.

http://quizilla.com/users/CoolingtheFire/quizzes/What's%20Your%20Angel%20Seeking%20For%3F%20.%3ABEAUTIFUL%20Anime%20Pics%20AND%20Music!%3A.

Serenity

Your angel seeks for serenity. Your angel is part of you. Thus, you are the kind of person who values peace and serenity more than most things in this world. You might not work well in hectic areas, but you most likely work well in quiet areas, or with soft music playing. You are calm and graceful, with a warm smile on your face a lot. In love, you seek someone who also manages to make you laugh, but can stay serious. Someone who can relate to you relaxed ways. You like to write, and read, you most likely will be a writer when you grow up!

That's all for now. Bye.

Never have orgies with porcupines,
Me

0.0... I haven't updated since WHEN?!?!

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 12:37:09 GMT

Yeah, it's true I haven't updated for over a month... I'm only updating now to take my mind off of the midterms... gah, I know I'm going to fail World History... If I don't it'll be a miracle... Same goes for geometry.

Gr.. but cool things:
Tommy got me this awesome butterfly necklace
We got a new parrot. It's a Jenday Conure. We're probably gonna call it Keiko, but my mom's not sure.

...Gotta go feed it... Bye!

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 00:10:58 GMT

Wow. I haven't updated in a long time... Well, there are some new happenings in my life. I have a boyfriend. ok, you can pick up your jaw now. It's Tommy. I'm really happy! Anyways, this whole business started on wednesday when Anna told me he broke up with Kelly and might ask me out. I just nodded and shrugged like usual, but i was hoping. Well, he said something about it in last hour, how it would be cool if we went out. i said yeah it would and i knew he was going to ask me, i'm not stupid. Then he called me that night and we talked for about half an hour about nothing in particular. Then the next day (thursday) he sat at our table at lunch and after we(Anna, Adam, Tommy, and I) had gone to the gym he asked me. it went like this:

T: Amy said we should go out. So did Anna.
S:Yeah...
T: So, do you want to?
S:Sure. *shrugs*
T: Ok.

At first i thought it was a little anticlimactic, but then Anna and Adam drug us off and told everybody and that was fun. Anyways, It's sunday night now and i'm waiting for him to call. last night we talked for about 2 hours. it was cool. i cleaned my room. XD.

Anyways, i'd better go. Bye!

P.S. I LOOOOOVE my new user icon thing. i made it just before i posted this. Wheeee!

Never Smoke a Squirrel,
Me

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 01:50:03 GMT

ok, so we'll start at the beginning.

it was 4:30 in the morning and mom called my she said, "if you want to go to the hospital you'd better get up now!" for a second i was all..what? who's in the hospital. then, BECKY! BABY! OMG! WEEEEEEEE! so i threw on my clothes, grabbed my already packed bag(i'd packed it in advance 3 days before) and ran upstairs. we all went except dad. he couldn't get off work. We were going to stop at a fast food place on the way, but none of the are open at 5 in the morning. so we stopped a meijers and got some food, then headed to the hospital. when we got to the maternity ward, Becky was ALREADY pushing!usually you don't push for a while, so we waited in the waiting room for about half an hour when dustin came back in and said the the baby had been born and she was nursing. It had been an 11 minute labor! we were shocked, but reeeeally happy. we still couldn't see her for a while though. not until Becky and Baby Alyssa were washed and comphy. then we went in and all had turns holding her. She was so beautiful. The most gorgeous baby i'd ever seen. we were at the hospital visiting until about 3 or 4 in the afternoon, but i went back later on and we were there till about 7:30. When we came out it was snowing. It's about 8:46 now and i'm exhausted. all the excitement and all.

Alyssa Jean Marie Spencer: Born Dec 2, 2004. 6:17 AM. 6 pounds 15 1/2 ounces (half a ounce shy of 7 pounds) 21 inches.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v73/Chicka_Danni/Alyssa2.jpg

this is the only picture uploaded so far.

Tall and skinny. But sooooo bbeautiful. Even her cry was cute!

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 18:40:40 GMT

i have no reason to update...but i am. well, thanksgiving is a reason. but i had a pretty good one. unlike erin, poor thing. Her stepdad sucks major pancakes. He's an evil bastard. really! he is! it's Anna and Adam's 2 month anniversary today! and anna had a dream she was married to this indian guy. i had a dream that i was married to this robed guy and we lived in a tent with his brother and i was 'with child' and i went shopping with my mom. and we bought bananas...dunno why. gotta go, bye!

Never live in a tent,
Me

I update!

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 18:32:53 GMT

I updated! well, not really past tense as i'm writing but still. Ok, so everybody knows i haven't updated since i started my story. it doesn't have a name yet, but it's about Damien, a 16-year-old guy who likes to draw. he also has a gay brother whose honor is often defended by him. His brother, Stephan, buys him a strange amulet for christmas and it makes his drawings come to life. how can he stop it? well, i'm not sure. i think i might have someone imprisoned in the amulet and damien has to let him out so he can make it all stop. Anyways, i'm on page 15. well, i only have one line on that page, but still. it's the third chapter! yay! gotta go. bye!

Todays Lesson: Never Play Barbies With Perverted 11-year olds...

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 02:41:14 GMT

I did... My cousin Tevin cam up this weekend. Fri-Tuesday morning. let's list a few things about him, shall we?

Tevin is:
Obsessed with butts
Obsessed with woman parts
Obsessed with Pokemon(which isn't actually that bad...)
A fraidy-cat extordinaire
a complete and utter super-SPAZ...10 times worse than Erin ever could be.
loud
Loud
LOUD
Very Loud

I think you get the point...

well, about the barbie thing, i bribed him into playing with barbies...*shrug* i thought it would be funny... i was half right....
have you ever seen a barbie humping a toy dog? i have. it was scary.

then he decided the wanted to make a soap opera about a guy with a bondage/torture fetish who liked to have sex with, then murder women...and dogs... and a turtle... the turtle was scariest.

anyways, you all know how we're perverted and all, but some of the things he said make me stop in my tracks and just stare at him, shocked. i'm very scared... and he's here till tomorrow morning... i'm surprised he's left my side long enough for me to write this. he's across the room playing him gameboy. well, i gotta go. He's coming over. Bye!

Some 11-year olds are scary beyond belief,
Me

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 19:07:12 GMT

my quiz! it makes no sense! but i like it! take it! take it now!

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 19:00:00 GMT

i took this quiz: http://quizilla.com/users/Jai16/quizzes/Where%20Does%20Your%20Beauty%20Lie%3F%20..%3A%3AAmazing%20Pictures%20And%20Ten%20Detailed%20Results%3A%3A..%20All%20Fixed!
and got this:

Your Beauty lies in Individuality. Different, amazing, and all your own. You like be set apart from all others and most love that you do. You are solitary at times, but for the most part, there is no greater compliment to you than someone telling you that you are different. You're most likely a bit of a fighter and you hate it when anyone attempts to change who you are. You wear what you want, look how you want and don't let anyone tell you what do to. You can be a little immature at times and have trouble dealing with authority and asking others for help. You like to do things yourself and are independent almost to a fault. But, people still find your individuality amazing and the fact that no matter what happens or what anyone else anyone thinks about it, you will not change who you are.

Some Things That Represent You:

Element: Dark, Fire Animal: White Tiger Color: Bold Colors, Odd Colors Song: Just They Way I Am by Angel Expression: Smirk

Gemstone: Bloodstone Mythological Creature: Phoenix, Dragon Sign: Leo Planet: Pluto Hair Color: Unnatural Colors Eye Color: Amber

Quote: "You laugh because I'm different. I laugh because you're all the same."

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 18:39:20 GMT

not sure i like that. oh, well.

Bwahahahaha!

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 22:47:30 GMT

I shall eat your boyfriends! I will smother them in chocolate and whipped cream and eat them...eep. weird image there. dunno why i said that. feeling a bit weird right now. i'm dancing! whee! i just realized that the only times when i'm not listening to music is when i go to other's houses, in some classes(there's music in the hallways...and geometry class) and when i'm sleeping. Cool! OOOOOH!!!!!! i LOVE this song. Keane's 'Somewhere only we know' it's just so...wonderful. dunno how else to describe it. it's just really good.

Oh simple thing
Where have you gone?
I'm getting old and i need something to rely on
So tell me when
You're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and i need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
somewhere only we know?

okay, i only typed the first chorus, but it's still really good. the band has a really good rhythm. Speaking of bands and songs, i wrote a new song. it's kind of punk rock-ish and i love it. Brittany said it was like Evanescence and Godsmack together. that made me feel special. i love those bands. It's called 'Notice Me' kinda sad, but not a lot. it's got a female and male part. it's fun to sing. especially the male part. it's mostly screaming...very fun. if anybody wants, i'll post it on here. if not i won't.personally, i like it.

Nothing much else to say right now. oh, i know. i'll talk about my cool story idea. ok, so there's this person and they have a sleeping disorder. they sleep for days at a time, but never get any rest. no medicines help, so the doctor sends them to a psychologist to find out what's wrong with them. the psychologists suggests hypnosis. they do it and they start talking about their life, only it's completely different, they mention that they have a sleeping disorder and they have an appointment with a doctor the next day. the doctor diagnoses them with multiple personality disorder and they try to find out about this other life. this person looks the same but dresses different, acts different, has different habits and is married with 2 kids. the original person starts thinking of all he could do with his life and meets another person and they fall in love. after a while they get used to the disorder and become friends with each other's families. and the original person and their gf/bf get married and live happily ever after.

kind of odd, but i like it. it has a sappy ending =^.^= hehehe. *sings somewhere only we know as she dances off*

Never let you 8 year old pyro son write bad words on the floor and light them on fire while you're sleeping. he could kill your daughter,
Me
(i just finished watching CSI. good episode)

Twisted

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 03:37:46 GMT

Oh my goddess. that movie was SO good. there's this cop chick and she just got promoted to the Homocide Division and her new partner's name is Mike. She has some... problems... with too much drinking and too much sex. then one of the guys she slept with turns up dead, then another, then another all in the same way. then another when she fights with him and passes out. every time she drinks she passes out. she drinks every night. you think it's her, but then you think it's Mike. But then you KNOW it's her mentor who was her father's partner. her father supposedly killed a bunch of people and her mother. then himself. she's raised by her mentor. Her mentor was the one who killed all the people. including her parents. now he wants to blame Mike with the murders and tries to kill him and make it look like a suicide. but Jessica's there and she stops him. then he tries to shoot mike a little later and she shoots him and he dies and all is good. anyways, it's an AWESOME movie. it was really good.

I drew another chick. i got the idea from brittany's costume. she's japanese. her dress is really pretty.

my ears hurt. i had to take the earrings out cuz they hurt, but i think i'll be fine by tomorrow morning. it's only a little sore. i'm bored now that the movie's over. i'm gonna go now. Bye!

Movies that keep you guessing keep you raving,

Me

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 01:35:10 GMT

I have just had a very odd few hours. My brother watches Montel and Oprah when we're gone at school/work. it was scary. we watched it together. very weird. thenhe started talking about yesterday's episode and i kinda tuned out. it was very weird.

i got the rest of my costume except the shoes. i'm probably gonna wear a pair of Dad's black boots. kc dff f fjkdk kldld fknvknsk m nkihfijdgijgknkmnfkntkijhirjjkng djhkjfn rjhfkn ds vgrjjgnd sorry. my fingers wanted to dance... i made a bunch of halloween twist-tie decorations and put them on my laptop. there's a spiderweb, a jack-o-lantern, a bat, a ghost, a witch and HH for happy halloween. it's cool. i also polished up all my jewelry and i might start wearing them more. i think i'm gonna put in a pair of earrings now so that i get used to wearing them again. we're gonna watch a movie. it's called twisted. dunno what it's about, though. i'll tell you when we watch it. gotta go watch the movie. Bye!

Don't reopen earring holes...owwwww....
Me

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 19:51:38 GMT

Well, today wasn't that nice until 6th hour because Anna wasn't here and Brittany was all weirdly-depressed-but-not-completely-because-she-was-kinda-hyper. But 6th hour was a lot better than yesterday. Chase snuck back to his old seat right next to me and Mr. Whipple saw him and surprisingly moved him there permanently. I was happy. So was he. We made weird phone number table thingies.

Then later Jeremy came back and sat on the heater-thingy. he was all, "OOh. COLD. My nipples are hard already" I kinda froze for a sec. He looked at me and said, "Why don't you try it. Tell me your nipples won't get hard" I just laughed and said no thanks. But what he said next made my eye twitch. He said, "Oh, come on. I wanna see your nipples get hard." I just laughed again and turned back to my computer. Then he showed Chase his nipple. I said, "Jeremy, I did NOT wanna see that." he was like, "Of course you did." Then he left. Looking back it was pretty funny but then it was even funnier.

Now i'm at home listening to curt's tv show...it's football. ugh. i'm bored...gonna check my email. bye!

Never chew alliminum foil if you have fillings,
Me

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 01:27:47 GMT

SO FUNNY!
"Goyle," he said, lowering his voice now so only the two of them could hear, "Did you know I could read minds?"

Goyle stared at him blankly.

"It´s true," said Draco. "It´s the magical power of my scar," he added, wondering if even Goyle was dim enough to believe this malarky.

"I don´t believe you," he said slowly, but there was a fear in his small eyes.

"For instance, I could tell everyone here that you sleep with your night light on, you wear pink frilly underwear because it makes you feel pretty, and you´re secretly in love with Crabbe -- you´ve got a photo of him under your pillow."

Goyle let out a yell of horror, shoved the toad at Draco, and took off running. For such a big fellow, he moved pretty fast and was soon out of sight.

that exerpt is from the wonderful Cassandra Claire's Draco Dormiens. To fully understand, you have to read it.

well, now on to my day. uhm...not much first hour...in second hour i turned in work. big improvement there. third hour was pretty boring, we finished that movie, though. uhm... fourth hour anna drew me...well, more like almost drew me. we goofed off the whole time. lunch was pretty boring, too. in english sasha and i both agreed we needed boyfriends...not much else there. sixth hour...i was sad. Mr. Whipple mad echase move back up to his old seat. it was so cute. he was all pouty and 'i don't want to'. it almost mad eme think he wanted to stay in the back with me. but anyways, we finished our other movie in seventh hour. it was cool.

not much more info on that dream, but i'm trying. well, i'd better go. CSI's on.

Never fall off of a cliff...or pet porcupines,
Me

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 00:41:15 GMT

i decided to follow erin's advice and do a reading on that dream, so here it is.

1.The Past.
The Moon: Beware of deception and the shifting of sands in superficial relationships. Suggests supernatural events.

2.The Present.
Magician: Suggests powerful energy and the summoning of new ideas. Also suggests the channeling of energy from the body to the mind.

3.What Is Helping.
The Sun: Suggests happy relationships and succesful creative endeavors. It could be time to expand horizons either socially or professionally.

4.Obstacles To Overcome.
The Star: hope and inspiration, perhaps from an unexpected source. A bright future is in store.

5.Attitudes Of Others.
Justice: Decisions will be made fairly.

6. What To Do.
Hermit:Suggest looking inward, seeking an inner path or an opportunity for self-knowledge.

7.The Outcome.
Strength:Message: Use your head, not your heart. Excercise restraint and hold your power in reserve. Courage and Fortitude will bring success.
thing
Let's just say this reading left me more confused than before, so i'm not sure what to think or do and if i SHOULD do anything.

Uhm... on a lighter note, i went to the fall carnival with Dustin and Becky. We all worked the ticket stands. i'd better go Mom and Dad and Eric and Kathy are back. Bye!

Celebrating an even 50 entries,
Me

odd dream

Sat, 23 Oct 2004 18:13:55 GMT

i had an odd dream this morning(around 2am). It started where i was in a log cabin of some sort. the people who lived there obviously had a lot of money. I was talking to a man, who turned out to be my best friend's husband, when said friend runs in through a deck door, very angry.

She starts yelling at me and the man screaming, "You whore! You slept with my husband" I didn't say anything but i felt guilty.

It turns out i was pregnant and it kind of fast forewarded to the birth. I had to give them my baby and i was sobbing, so they let me babysit sometimes. over time i bonded greatly with my beautiful son.

He had silky-soft black curls and shimmering, gorgeous blue eyes. well, the next part doesn't make much sense, but my supposed best friend and her husband we walking away down a highway(i think they were moving)with Jonas(my son) and they stop for a moment and nod to each other and toss him into the road.He starts crying and they push me too and i can see a truck coming. I grab him and run out of the road, holding him close.

He seems to be about 3 or 4 at this time and i feel oddly liberated, seeing the couple walking away, leaving my son and i in peace. I looked into his eyes and pet his hair, then i hug him close and he smiles through his tears. I wake up for a minute now, feeling very odd, but soon drift back into the dream.

Now i'm holding him and we're walking down the highway in the opposite direction of the others. i see trees and mountains and know we're in colorado, we walk to this path and follow it(along the way we see a bunch of dead people, but that didn't distract us too much) we came to another log cabin and we go inside.

I feel really happy and i hug hom close. i see my family there and apparently it's Kathy's birthday like in real life because she's opening presents. They all look at me with Jonas and smile and hug me, telling me how happy they are for me. i sit on a couch with Jonas and he slowly falls asleep while i watch him, thinking he's so beautiful and he's finally all mine.

Then i wake up for the last time and i feel very weird. i feel motherly, comforted, confused, happy, sad, and most of all there's this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach, making me feel that this dream really means something.

so i wrote it down. if anyone knows how to decifer dreams, please tell me or do it for me, because i feel that this dream is really important in some way. i've never vividly remembered dreams and i've never FELT anything in them.

Dreams are your minds way to tell you something,
Me

Sat, 23 Oct 2004 02:32:58 GMT

wow. can't believe i haven't updated since the zoey thing... been a while. well, i'm going to act as if anyone cares and talk about me. because i feel the need to do that just now, like most othe times. i'm a rather self-absorbed person, really. And jealous, and posessive, and blunt. Reading back over that i realize that i'm feeling quite moody...and a bit bitchy, but on to other matters.

The whole, 'love-life' things i'm supposed to have is COMPLETELY non-existent. sure, i've talked a lot more with guys lately (especially Chase) but i'm still getting nowhere. Anna has Adam, Brittany has Josh, Erin has Ted now and i guess i feel a bit odd. I need a boyfriend. or at least a guy who likes me. *sigh*

Well, the whole religion thing is really confusing me right now. Trust me, if i knew what religion i am i would be much more at peace, i guess, but i just can't name it. I do believe in life after death, but only until you are reincarnated. I believe that life is just a way to learn and grow. and when you die, your soul moves on to learn the next lesson. I do believe in fate and i do believe in guardians. I'm not to clear on anything else though. I know i shouldn't care too much, concidering i hate labels, but i just feel the need to... i don't know...clear it all up.

If i overlook the last couple of issues, life's not so bad right now. Sure i have a D+ in geometry, but i have pretty ok grades in all my other classes. and, the house is WARM for once. nice and cozy.

Today was Kathy's birthday, so we all went to Boone's for dinner. VERY nice place. Great food, great service, awesome soap in the bathrooms, but a bit pricey. oh, well. it was awesome. i just wish i hadn't felt sick all the way there.

I guess i should stop now before i get too into this and start telling you guys everything about my life since i last updated. which, to be honest, isn't all that exciting. Well, bye.

Stop confusing me! I confuse myself enough already!
Me

What are you afraid of?
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
Fear:	closeness
Why:	they smile funny
To Overcome:	cuddle with it

This fun quiz by sweet_nightmares - Taken 2 Times. </a>